So I’ve picked up Queen of Shadows again and spent a lot of today wrestling with it. And I keep finding that while I know what’s happening in the moment, I can’t even see an ending…What is up with that? I don’t know what it is, but my mind’s been in a fog for a while now. I think it’s a combination of burnout from school and a feeling of inadequacy. I feel like I am not dedicated enough to my craft, to my dreams. Where do I go from here?
My words are stopped up again because it’s been quite a while since I wrote, but I have come to learn that just keeping at it really does help. I know how my story works, I know the tools I can use to make a great book, yet at the same time the skills I have always feel uncertain.
I don’t feel enthusiasm for anything except…reading. But I can’t do that right now. I have things to write before school starts again that I won’t have a chance to until summer. The urgency is there, but the words don’t come.